Wednesday, August 26, 2020

Down the Trump Rabbit Hole - 26 August, 2020

[sent 26 August 2020 to my wife and our three daughters]

Good morning. I am reading Nelson Mandela’s Conversations with Myself (selections from his letters, diaries, notes, letter drafts, etc.) and last night came across the entry I have inserted below. I found these observations based on his experience encouraging and thought you might find similar value. Much love! Doug/Dad
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[Nelson Mandela from his unpublished autobiographical manuscript written in prison]

 “Those who are in the center of political struggle, who have to deal with practical and pressing problems, are afforded little time for reflection and no precedents to guide them. But in due course, and provided they are flexible and prepared to examine their work self critically, they will acquire the necessary experience and foresight that will enable them to avoid the ordinary pitfalls and pick out their way ahead amidst the throb of events.”

Monday, August 24, 2020

Down the Trump Rabbit Hole - 24 August 2020

 [Sent 24 August 2020 to my wife and our three daughters]

Good morning. Quick note to make sure you have seen this announcement re the Republican Party's executive committee voting unanimously not to have a party platform but instead to simply endorse Trump and his administration. This seems alarmingly near the Hitler oath. Here is the link. I still have chills from coming across the ‘no party platform’ GOP announcement this morning. Doug

 https://www.huffpost.com/entry/gop-party-platform-2020-trump_n_5f4353bac5b6305f32597ec4 

 

Saturday, August 22, 2020

Down the Trump Rabbit Hole - 21 August 2020



[Sent 21 August 2020 to my wife and three daughters]

‘Decency’ . . . ‘respect’ . . . ‘honesty’ . . . ‘courage’ . . . ‘sacrifice’ . . . ‘empathy’ . . . ‘dignity’ . . . ‘humility’ . . . ‘justice’ . . . ‘light’ . . . ‘resilience’ . . . – one presenter after another during this week’s Democratic National Convention authentically personalized, embraced, and reinforced these and similar recurring themes. For me, the most penetrating/convicting moment in the convention came last night with 13-year-old Brayden Harrington’s genuine/unadorned two-minute description – as he struggled with poise to complete several words -- of his life-changing meeting with Joe Biden after a campaign event in Concord, NH. Brayden’s father explained to Biden – “We’re here because he stutters; he wanted to hear you speak”. Biden hugged Brayden and leaned close – “I know about bullies. You know about bullies – the kids who make fun. It’s going to change. I promise you.” In case you missed Brayden’s presentation last night, here is the link – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UbDanLDO_rc   

As I watched the convention night after night, my thoughts frequently recalled the anchoring/pivotal place Trina Paulus’ 1972 tale about two caterpillars – Yellow and Stripe – in her Hope for the Flowers had in our many dinner table conversations together as a family about how to live life well. You remember the story. Stripe does what he sees all caterpillars doing. As soon as he is able, he crawls with mounting excitement to the nearest pillar of caterpillars. These pillars tower into the clouds in every direction as far as Stripe can see. He does not question his resolve to make it to the top of one of these pillars. The method? Climb or be climbed. The reason? No one knows or takes time to ask. Stripe quickly gets used to pushing and being pushed, to kicking and being kicked, to stepping on and being stepped on. Part way up his caterpillar pillar, he crawls over a yellow caterpillar. Their eyes meet. They begin to talk as they continue to climb. The more they talk, the less single-minded Stripe and Yellow become. Stripe wonders to himself, “How can I step on someone I’ve just talked to?” He avoids Yellow as much as possible as they climb, but one day she is blocking his only way up. “I guess it’s you or me” he says and steps squarely on her head. The way Yellow looks at him makes Stripe feel awful as he faces the disturbing question -- “Can getting to the top be worth that?” He crawls off Yellow and whispers, “I’m sorry”. They decide to crawl down the pillar together, a hard but necessary decision in the search for another way of being. Once on the ground, they live in the grass, content for a time to romp and grow together, happy not to be fighting everybody every moment. But they both long to be ‘up’ and the only way they know to be ‘up’ is to climb a pillar of caterpillars, the top of which remains clouded from view. They ponder but cannot decipher the meaning of three caterpillars who fall hard to the ground nearby, smashed and near death – i.e., that cycle after cycle of desperate/frightened caterpillars clutch their positions at the pillar top until eventually the upward thrust from the caterpillars nearing the pillar top shoves them off/over the side. Finally, the restless Stripe without Yellow begins climbing again. A desolate Yellow daily watches in vain for Stripe to return. Then pensive, she begins to experience the mysterious transformation into a butterfly. Coached by a grey-haired caterpillar ahead of her, she decides to take the risk for another way to be. Without Yellow, Stripe climbs ruthlessly over other caterpillars. As he nears the pillar top, the mystery of the pillar begins to clear. He freezes, seeing what always happens – “Millions of caterpillars climbing nowhere!” Then a brilliant yellow-winged creature circles the pillar. The eyes/look convince him it is Yellow. He begins climbing down again, whispering with little success to those he passes that “I’ve been up; there’s nothing there”, but celebrating with the few who listen that “We can fly!” At times uncertain with dimming hope as he descends, he clings to the idea that “there can be more to life”. Positioning himself beside two torn sacks hanging from a branch, he lets go of everything familiar/comfortable and is enveloped in darkness as Yellow waits.

On the book’s back cover, Trina Paulus explained that the story is “for everyone except those who have given up completely”. Are there still at this time enough Yellows and Stripes? enough who have not given up completely? enough who can imagine a better way? enough who have the courage to risk the familiar/comfortable for the possible? This election will answer these questions – perhaps irreversibly -- for our society. Regardless of the election’s outcome, I am confident you/we will remain among those who value giving hope for the flowers.

Doug/Dad

 

Monday, August 17, 2020

Surgical Ethics Education Resources #36

note: This post is also in .pdf format here.

“Just do everything”?

A Goals of Care Protocol for End-of-Life Decision Making

Jonathan Green, MD; Laureen Hill, MD; Douglas Brown, PhD

[Jonathan, Laureen, and I were with Washington University in St. Louis School of Medicine when we created and implemented this ‘Goals of Care’ protocol at the medical school’s teaching hospital. I was embedded in the hospital working collaboratively with the ethics committee members to strengthen the ability of the hospital staff to handle ethically challenging cases. Jonathan was the ethics committee’s chair. Laureen anchored the ethics consult service. Jonathan – a pulmonologist -- was one of the Medicine ICU attendings and is now with the NIH. Laureen – an anesthesiologist -- was one of the Cardio-Thoracic ICU attendings and is now the Chief Operating Officer with New York Presbyterian-Columbia.]

A paradigm case

An 84-year-old female is brought to the emergency room in cardiac arrest. After twenty minutes of CPR, she is resuscitated and transported to the Medicine ICU. She is intubated, on mechanical ventilation, requires hemodynamic support with vasopressors, and is in acute renal failure. She is diagnosed with pneumonia and sepsis. After one week of aggressive treatment, she has not improved and has deteriorated into multi-organ system failure. She responds only to painful stimuli despite minimal sedation. She remains oliguric and on high doses of norepinephrine to maintain an adequate blood pressure. The medical team considers her prognosis to be grim. If she survives, she will likely be confined to bed, will be fully dependent on others for her care for the remainder of her life, and may be severely cognitively impaired.

A recurring ethical problem/challenge

Caring for such a patient can be simultaneously the most challenging, the most rewarding, and the most frustrating experience for physicians and support staff as well as for the patient and family members. When successful, an opportunity for reflection and closure is created for the patient and family and also for the health care team. Yet too often the experience deteriorates into turmoil and conflict.

Studies have repeatedly documented dissatisfaction with end-of-life care as provided in acute care hospital settings. Flawed communication remains the norm. To illustrate with the 84-year-old female patient, a typical discussion between the attending physician and family members of the patient might proceed as follows. After morning rounds, the physician meets with the patient’s husband in the ICU consultation room to discuss his wife’s care. The physician begins:

“Mr. Smith, your wife is very ill. She suffered extensive brain damage when her heart stopped a week ago. Her kidneys have failed. Her blood pressure is very low and is requiring strong medicine to keep it in a safe range. She is unable to breathe without the breathing machine. Right now intensive life-support is keeping her alive.” The physician then asks the patient’s husband, “If her heart stops, what would you like us to do?” Mr. Smith responds, “I don’t understand, doctor. What do you mean?” The physician continues, “Well, if her heart stops, do you want us to try and restart it?” Tearfully, Mr. Smith answers, “Of course, Doctor. Won’t she die if you don’t? I love her. We have been married fifty-four years. . . .” The physician continues, “Well, what about dialysis, should we start dialysis if her kidneys do not improve? And do you want us to continue with the blood pressure medicine if her blood pressure drops further?” Now very distraught, Mr. Smith responds, “Doctor, I want you to do everything”.

 The physician returns to the ICU, feeling frustrated that the care team is continuing interventions they know are non-beneficial. The husband is confused and upset. He feels less in control, less able to help his wife. He does not understand what the doctor was asking him or why.

Assessing the problem

We formed a multi-specialty working group of physicians, nurses, and other hospital staff – all of whom were intimately involved in the care of critically-ill patients – to assess the need for improved communication with patients and their families. A consistent theme that arose in numerous interviews and focus groups with staff was the use of the hospital’s ‘Level of Care Treatment Orders’ form, a pre-printed order sheet that had been designed for the medical staff to use in documenting and communicating to the nursing staff the medical interventions that were or were not to be performed in the care of a patient. With a checklist of fifteen different interventions ranging from CPR, defibrillation, and endotracheal intubation to antibiotics, x-rays, and blood draws, this form focused on therapeutic options in a convenient menu format. We discovered that, instead of being used as an orders sheet for the nurses, this form was frequently being presented to patients or their family members by a member of the medical staff. A point by point discussion followed, in which the family was asked to choose which therapies they wished their loved one to receive. The consequences from this deeply flawed process were several and serious – e.g.,

  • family members were essentially being asked to develop the patient’s treatment plan;

  • physicians were failing to develop logical therapeutic strategies, handing off critical decisions instead to family members;

  • the treatment plans that were being implemented often did not make medical sense (e.g., CPR but no intubation) and were not linked to feasible outcomes;

  • the perception that anything less than everything possible is a diminished ‘level’ of care was being reinforced;

  • attention to the patient’s goals and expectations for a hospitalization was inadequate or nonexistent;

  • patients and their families (who were being asked to make decisions far beyond their knowledge or understanding) were frequently confused;

  • caregivers routinely became demoralized and defensive (as indicated by references to a patient’s care as ‘flogging’, ‘abuse’, ‘wasteful’, ‘futile’, ‘torture’, ‘insane’, ‘brutalizing’).

The need to remove/eliminate the ‘Level of Care Treatment Orders’ form/approach and in its place to develop an alternative approach that would clarify feasible patient goals, establish a focus of care, delineate decision-making responsibilities, and provide a rational framework for code status orders for cases involving decisions about the use of life-sustaining intensive interventions was apparent and urgent.

Developing an alternative

After numerous cycles of feedback and revision over eighteen months, an alternative approach – based on a ‘Goals of Care Directive’ template we created (inserted below) -- was submitted to the appropriate medical and administrative committees for approval/adoption. This approach and the accompanying template was then introduced in the hospital’s ICUs and eventually integrated into the EMR. 

 The first and anchoring step calls for the treating physician to learn from the patient and/or family members the goals and expectations for care. The patient and/or family members may propose specific affirmative goals and expectations for care (which should be documented verbatim when possible). In addition and of similar importance, many patients and/or family members are able to identify conditions that would be unacceptable outcomes of the hospitalization.

After identifying and clarifying the goals and expectations for care with the patient and/or family members, the treating physician guides the discussion to the second step – i.e., to reach consensus on the appropriate focus of the treatment plan (i.e., comfort care or restorative care). It is the responsibility of the treating physician to develop and implement a medically sound plan that is consistent with the values, goals, and expectations of the patient. It is the responsibility of the patient and/or family members to provide accurate information to the treating team as to the patient’s values, goals, and expectations and to remain sufficiently present/informed about the patient’s care to weigh the burdens to the patient associated with the treatment plan. In this way, a productive ongoing discussion can ensue, without unreasonable responsibilities being placed on the family and with appropriate medical decision-making being assumed by the treating physician. All medically appropriate therapies that are consistent with the patient’s values, goals, and expectations should be implemented. Those treatments that are not efficacious, not consistent with the patient’s values, goals and expectations, or highly likely to leave the patient with an outcome deemed unacceptable by the patient and/or family members should not be introduced or initiated. 

The treating physician readdresses the goals and expectations for care with the patient and/or family members and alters the treatment plan (1) when there is a significant change in the patient’s condition or prognosis, or (2) if after a trial of therapy it is clear the previously established goals and expectations for care cannot be reached. At this point, the treating physician speaks further with the patient and/or family members about achievable goals and modifies the focus of care and treatment plan accordingly (e.g., a patient with severe pneumonia/ARDS and initial goals to return home to independent living who cannot be weaned from mechanical ventilation following a protracted ICU course and multidrug resistant infections). 

This ‘Goals of Care Directive’ approach provides a framework for code status decisions. A physician order is placed in the orders section of the patient’s medical record when the treating physician determines that initiating ACLS protocols is not consistent with the patient’s values, goals and expectations. This order is deliberately and intricately linked to the discussion of the goals of care and the focus of care with the patient and/or family members. The specific elements of ACLS need not be individually discussed with the patient and/or family members. If attempts at resuscitation are appropriate in the event of cardiac arrest, all medically indicated interventions should be done. The circumstances to which a ‘No Code’ order applies are very narrow. The intention is that a ‘No Code’ order should be applied only to situations of complete cardiac and/or respiratory arrest – i.e., no pulse, no blood pressure, and/or no respirations. All other situations -- such as hypotension, supraventricular tachycardias, respiratory distress -- should be individually addressed and treated in a manner consistent with the patient’s goals and values. The management may or may not include aggressive measures, depending on the specifics of each case. 

Conclusion

What would using this ‘Goals of Care Directive’ approach and template contribute to the communication with the 84-year-old female patient’s husband? The attending physician finds a quiet place near the ICU to speak with the patient’s husband and begins -- 

“Mr. Smith, I would like to speak with you about your wife. First, do you have any specific questions?” Mr. Smith answers, “How is she doing, Doctor?” The physician responds, “Unfortunately, not well. When she was brought to the hospital, her heart had stopped. In the emergency room, the doctors were able to restart her heart, but she has suffered brain damage and some of her other organs, such as her kidneys, have also been badly damaged. Right now intensive life support is keeping her alive.” The physician pauses for Mr. Smith, now tearful, to gather himself. Mr. Smith reflects, “That sounds terrible. We have been married 54 years. I can’t imagine life without her.” The physician admits, “I can hardly imagine how difficult it must be for you to see your wife like this. I need to know more about her, I need to understand her better, so that we can make a plan that is best for her. Can you tell me about her? Did she work?” Mr. Smith clarifies, “No, she stayed home and cared for our children. She was always very active though. She loved to garden and help out with church activities. She always was watching one grandkid or another. . . .” The physician comments, “It sounds like she was a very busy person, and that you have a very close family.” Mr. Smith agrees, “Yes, she always has to be busy. Our family means the world to her.” The physician explains, “Unfortunately, because of what has happened to her, I don’t think she will be able to recover sufficiently to return to those activities.” Mr. Smith asks, “What do you mean?” The physician continues, “If she survives this hospitalization, she will almost certainly have to go to a nursing home. She will not be able to care for herself or interact much with her family.” Mr. Smith reacts, “Oh no, we have talked about that. She would never want to live that way. Her mother was in a nursing home for years and it was very hard on my wife. She has frequently told me and our children not to keep her hooked to machines.” The physician pauses, then begins to discuss a plan consistent with this understanding, “Given what you have just explained, continuing what we are doing right now doesn’t make a lot of sense. We should instead focus on keeping her comfortable. She is likely to deteriorate further. If she does, we will let her pass peacefully. We will not attempt to restart her heart. Do you have any questions?” The husband replies, “Thank you Doctor, please make sure she doesn’t suffer.” The physician responds, “We will. Do you want me to be with you when you speak with your children?” The husband accepts the offer. 

This idealized conversation is not outside the bounds of reality or experience. Approximating this conversation requires a skilled and individualized approach with every patient and family. Some cases will be more difficult than others. Some cases will still end in frustration, despite everyone’s best efforts. However, by utilizing this ‘Goals of Care Directive’ approach and template, we propose that such collaborative and respectful communication can become the norm rather than the exception.


Goals of Care -- Communication Template

[most recently revised draft]

PART A: Document Goals of Care

Based upon comprehensive discussion between the patient ____________ (or surrogate) and the treating physician, the following explanation best describes the patient’s current goals of care: 

_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

EXAMPLES include but are not limited to: “return to prior living situation at previous functional status” or “return to prior living situation after physical therapy” or “remain in my home” or “be free of pain or breathlessness” or “maintain my privacy and dignity” or “be able to interact with my loved ones” or “attend my granddaughter’s graduation".
NOTE: “Do everything” is NOT a goal of care. Ask the patient (or surrogate) what ‘everything’ is intended to achieve.
NOTE: To set realistic goals, the patient (or surrogate) needs a clear description of what to expect.


Discuss and document if the patient wants aggressive life-support measures stopped and wants treatment instead to focus on comfort and dignity if any one or combination of the following is the most likely outcome:

____ being permanently unconscious (i.e., completely unaware of surroundings with no chance of regaining consciousness)

____ being permanently unable to remember, understand, make decisions, recognize loved ones, have conversations

____ being permanently bedridden and completely dependent on the assistance of others to accomplish daily activities (e.g., eating, bathing, dressing, moving)

____ being permanently dependent on mechanical ventilation

____ being permanently dependent on hemodialysis

____ being permanently dependent on artificial nutrition (tube feedings) and/or intravenous hydration for survival

____ death likely to occur within days to weeks and treatments are only prolonging the dying process

____ other (specify):

____________________________________________________________________________

PART B: Document Focus of Care

Based upon the above understanding of the patient’s goals of care: (check one)

_______The focus of care will be to restore the patient to a level of function compatible with the goals outlined above. Specific testing and treatments will be ordered by the patient’s physicians with the intent to achieve these goals. 

 _______The focus of care will concentrate on the patient’s comfort. Treatments that serve only to prolong the process of dying or place undue burden on the patient will not be initiated or continued.

PART C: Recommend Resuscitation Status

  1. Based on the patient’s current condition, prognosis, and comorbidities, and after weighing likely benefits, harms, and goals outlined above -- 
    • The treating physician does / does not (circle one) recommend CPR in the event of cardiac arrest.
    • The treating physician does / does not (circle one) recommend intubation in the event of impending respiratory arrest.
    • The treating physician at this time cannot make a definitive recommendation (circle) regarding CPR or intubation.

  2. These recommendations have been discussed with the patient (or surrogate) with reassurance that if resuscitation is not performed, treatment will be provided with the goal of comfort and dignity: Yes / No

  3. For the patient (or surrogate) who decides to be resuscitated (i.e., Code 1) despite the treating physician’s recommendation against such, the treating physician has discussed the likely immediate consequences of CPR if successful: Yes / No

  4. Person with whom to speak if the patient lacks decisional capacity:
    Name: _________________________________
    Relation: _______________
    Phone Number: ______________




Friday, August 7, 2020

Down the Trump Rabbit Hole - 31 July 2020

[Sent 31 July 2020 to my wife and three daughters]

Good morning.  I am sure you have paused frequently since Congressman John Lewis died two weeks ago as various media have respectfully reported each stage of the thoughtfully orchestrated review and summation of his disciplined, sustained, courageous, and dignified march toward peaceful and just community.  The range of speakers during yesterday’s funeral service – from the 11-year-old boy who broke down after reading his friend Lewis’ favorite poem Invictus to the niece who vividly sketched her uncle Lewis’ manner within family circles to Congressman Lewis’ deputy chief of staff whose vignettes of working near him confirmed his integrity to the crescendo of salutes the prophet Lewis received from the four living past presidents – demonstrated Lewis’ consistency and justified the authority of his words.  I anticipate I will return most often to the stirring message powerfully delivered by Lewis’ mentor in non-violent activism from the early 1960s – the 91-year-old James Lawson.  I am concerned that Lawson’s presentation is not being appropriately noted in the media coverage.  I have inserted below a link to Lawson’s funeral oration and encourage you to find a few minutes to listen if you have not yet heard it.  Doug/Dad

Thursday, August 6, 2020

Surgical Ethics Education Resources #35

[Sent 16 July 2020 to the Surgical Ethics Education working group]

Greetings from St. Louis and WashU. For ‘Surgical Ethics Education Resources #35’, I have inserted below (and attached) a grid I created a few years ago as a two-step tool for identifying and differentiating ethically concerning decisions and/or actions in patient care --


The first step is to associate the ethically concerning decision and/or action with the relevant ethical obligation/s (i.e., the four columns in the grid) and with the relevant organizational objective/s (i.e., the four lines in the grid). The second step is to highlight/underscore the primary contributing factor/s.

I have found this grid to be useful when training ethics consult teams as well as when developing the basic skills physicians/surgeons, residents, medical students, and nurses need for seeing/analyzing the ethical dimensions of patient care. I welcome your feedback about this grid as an aid in determining the focus and strengthening the precision of ethical analysis/discussion.

Doug

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Down the Trump Rabbit Hole - 2 July 2020


[Sent 2 July 2020 to my wife and our daughters re Independence Day 2020]

Hi. I trust you are all well. I saw this man in a recent news clip. He is protesting against COVID-19 public health restrictions.


I keep thinking about this ‘Selfish and Proud!’ man – the sporty t-shirt, the wraparound sunglasses, the backward cap, the graying hair, the tan, the fine watch, the wedding ring, the cutely drawn exclamation point. He is affluent (in the etymological sense of ‘to flow to/ward’). He is not deprived or lacking. What is he like as a parent? a brother? a spouse? a neighbor? a teacher? a co-worker? a passenger in an adjacent seat on a long flight? a driver approaching an intersection? a customer in a checkout line? a partner on a risky assignment? Would he present himself as ‘Selfish and Proud!’ on a school or job application? For whom/what does he vote?

‘Selfish and Proud!’ – this interpretation of independence is the reason I will not celebrate on Saturday the ‘Fourth’. I will instead pause to search deeply and honestly for evidence of this revolting/embarrassing image of America in my attitudes, decisions, and actions with the resolve to renew my efforts to be otherwise. Am I engrossed in myself? Do I care only for myself? Am I satisfied with caring primarily for myself? Do I notice/regard others only to exploit them for my gain? Am I drawn to ‘enlightened self-interest’ reasoning? Was Hobbes right about us all?

The Trump administration – with federal government complicity – every day tramples any restraint against normalizing and championing a ‘Selfish and Proud!’ America. Two days ago, the Health and Human Services Secretary Azar cheered the Trump administration for outbidding and outmaneuvering all other countries to grab/corner the entire world supply of the COVID-19 medication remdesivir “to ensure that any American patient who needs remdesivir can get it”. How many heard this announcement as yet another example of a ‘Selfish and Proud!’ America?

The 30-40% of voting-age US citizens who are unwavering Trump supporters celebrate a ‘Selfish and Proud!’ America. They are complicit in and accountable for Trump’s ruinous opposition to integrity, decency, modesty, respect, empathy, peacemaking, standing with those at risk, sacrifice, caution, prioritizing an international social contract, unfettered education, . . . – all defining traits for a way of being that in my judgment remains worth living for, sacrificing for, and if necessary dying for. May we use Independence Day 2020 to reset/refresh these core values.

Doug/Dad


Tuesday, August 4, 2020

DOWN THE TRUMP RABBIT HOLE – 11 June 2020

Good afternoon. I trust you all continue to be safe and well. We are being careful when out on our several walks each day. We have not yet returned to a restaurant. I had my second on-campus meeting yesterday – i.e., the ‘values clarification re abortion’ session an Ob/Gyn faculty member and I have facilitated for the past decade with each year’s incoming Ob/Gyn interns. Otherwise, my medical/surgical ethics work remains virtual. I thought you would be interested in the e-mail response I sent last week to one of our department’s trauma surgeons with whom I am collaborating on several surgical ethics projects. She is in her late-30s and very thoughtful (her undergraduate program centered on a ‘great books’ curriculum). She called to discuss a manuscript we are revising for publication. Near the end of the conversation, she shifted the focus to her having read earlier in the week Elie Wiesel’s Night for the first time. She was gripped by Wiesel’s jarring narration of his teenager experience surviving Auschwitz and Buchenwald concentration camps, but confused by the quite religious image of Wiesel she brought to reading Night based on her superficial awareness of him while she had been in medical school at Dartmouth and later in a public health master’s program at Harvard. We only had a very few minutes to discuss her questions. I sent her the e-mail message below the following morning. Doug/Dad

_______________________

Good morning. I appreciate very much your introducing into our phone conversation last night your response to reading Elie Wiesel’s Night this week. I apologize for slipping so quickly into my ‘professor’ archives! I have now refreshed/organized my recollections and want to share some highlights re Wiesel, Night, and my personal journey.

  • I was raised (b. 1951) in a small West KY town where a narrow view of ‘the world’ was uncritically taken for granted. I never saw/read a newspaper with a national or international scope. My family – immediate and extended – was comfortable in fundamentalist/cultist Christianity. My public school education was politically cautious but rather solid re valuing education, creating for me an alternative to the fear/hostility toward critical thinking in my home and religious community. I was something of a sponge re school (especially math and history). But my primary aim/ambition focused on becoming a professional baseball player, which seemed a distinct possibility until a serious neck injury during a high school football game in my junior year. I graduated from high school with no clear direction, having only thought about the regional Murray State University because its Class B minor league level baseball program could have been a step toward a major league career. My parents sent me to a West TN junior college aligned with my family’s religious and social worldview. I explored the possibility of following the example of my three uncles who were West KY pastors. After these two years, I married my first wife (d. 1987) – also from a small West KY town -- whom I had known/admired since high school and who was something of a piano prodigy. We returned to West KY. I entered the regional university (studying history, sociology, literature/oral interpretation). She had her first MS symptoms. Resolving to be a ‘historian first’, my graduate studies (which fortuitously became something of a consortium involving St. Meinrad Monastery/Seminary, Southern Seminary, and Oxford University) centered on the history of ideas – political, scientific, philosophical, theological – that have been seminal/pivotal ideas in shaping western civilization. My wife’s courageous fight against unremitting MS was the existential crucible within which I tested these seminal/pivotal ideas. ‘Melting’ and ‘crumbling’ are the most descriptive analogies re the failure of the ideas I inherited and brought into this experience.

  • It was in this context that I first engaged Night, as an assigned reading in a mid-1970s graduate seminar. I knew little about Wiesel at that time beyond this raw/unsentimental chronicle of horror. He was not yet recognized as a Holocaust survivor icon/legend in the US and Nobel Peace Prize recipient. After a decade of undergraduate and graduate studies, Night was among the few writings that remained on my ‘history of ideas’ list of credible modern sources (along with such sources as Camus’ The Plague, Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning, Simone Weil’s essays/articles, Dietrich Bonhoeffer’s Letters and Papers from Prison, . . .). I recall being disappointed to discover that Wiesel’s writings subsequent to Night did not build on Night or go in the direction I anticipated. I retained Night but not Wiesel. Some fifteen years ago, I discovered my most valued Holocaust survivor voice -- Primo Levi, his life and his novels. And I have spent considerable time with as many published or oral records of Holocaust survivor recollections as well as with biographies and memoirs of a wide/diverse range of individuals in Europe who came of age between WWI and WWII.

  • Wiesel returned to my attention after my first trip with Dr. McRay to Israel/Palestine in 2004, when our global health education project was only an idea. I vividly remember being embarrassingly ignorant of the Middle East backstory and shocked by the ‘abused become abusers’ political/military actions of the State of Israel toward the Palestinians in/for which the US was complicit. As Dr. McRay and I developed/implemented our global health elective year after year, I found Wiesel either to be silent or to be an ‘Israel right or wrong but, right or wrong, Israel’ defender. In his later years, I was disappointed to see him align with Christian fundamentalist Zionist-supporting tele-evangelists such as John Hagee, support Israel prime minister Netanyahu, even have a private lunch with presidential candidate Trump. My bottom line assessment -- Wiesel was raised in, groped in the dark for, struggled against, reconciled with, and became co-dependent on his very Orthodox Jewish origins.

  • Shortly after moving in 2007 to St. Louis, I learned of Hedy Epstein (1924-2016). Hedy’s home was Freiburg. She was rescued from the Nazis by ‘Kindertransport’. Almost all of her family perished in Auschwitz. She immigrated to the US in 1948. She lived in St. Louis for most of her adult years. I often went to hear Hedy speak. For several years, I stood each Tuesday Noon-1:00pm on Delmar Blvd at the west end of The Loop with Hedy and the ‘Women In Black’ chapter members in silent protest against Palestinian oppression. I had the privilege of speaking with her over coffee several times at the nearby Panera Bread cafe before or after the silent protests. I learned about her sustained activist efforts – local, national, international. I sought her guidance for what Dr. McRay and I were doing in the West Bank and in Gaza. Hedy was the Holocaust witness/activist I failed to find in Wiesel.
Do with these reflections whatever seems best for you. I am certainly available to discuss any of these matters with you at your request.

Doug

Monday, August 3, 2020

DOWN THE TRUMP RABBIT HOLE – 31 May 2020

Hi. I started to use ‘Good afternoon’, but today across the US we did not awake to a ‘good’ day. The protests in St. Louis linked to George Floyd’s murder are significant and sustained. Mom and I are looking for ways to be aligned with the unfolding protest – so raw, pained, exasperated, exhausted -- to this brutal and senseless death . . . and the day after day/year after year dehumanizing encounters that have led to this tipping point. The reckless vandalizing on the periphery must not distract us from concentrating on what in essence is deeply rooted systemic injustice. Is our society near enough to the November elections for this eruption to sweep Trump and his congressional enablers out of office? Biden’s VP selection will be pivotal.

From the May 5 leaks about the February 23 lynching of Ahmaud Arbery through last Monday’s dismaying murder of George Floyd – this month in search for footing I have frequently (re)turned to a three-hour continuing education workshop three years ago for 20-25 experienced/‘in the field’ social workers our university’s social work program asked me to facilitate. The assigned subject – ‘pursuing justice’. We began with a reality check posed by the Organization for Economic Cooperation and Development criteria for assessing the OECD member nations --



The workshop participants were quick to share stories illustrating the OECD message that pursuing justice in the US is precarious and discouraging. We used a set of probing questions re ‘pursuing’ and re ‘justice’ for the workshop’s three parts – thirty minutes alone with the questions, an hour disclosing/listening in small groups, and an hour for full group strategic planning. We paused to feel the full force of the term/image ‘pursue’ before we claimed to be among those who are pursuing justice. We then dared to ask ourselves – e.g., What does it mean to ‘pursue’ justice? What indicators clarify where we are on a spectrum with ‘fleeing justice’ at one end and with ‘pursuing justice’ at the other end? What alternatives lie between ‘fleeing’ and ‘pursuing’? How defensive are we about our own affluence/privilege? Can we keep our jobs even if our effort falls short of pursuing justice? What barriers do we face when we pursue justice? How do we work with colleagues who are not pursuing justice? What competes with justice for our attention? Do we think about quitting? How do we recover from fatigue and disappointment? How do we define success? What urgency about justice would our personal statement project if we were applying for a new position?

According to the feedback, most of us departed agreeing that to be of any use we must stay near, be attentive, and expect opportunities to find us. I wonder what we would say to each other if we huddled again tomorrow.

Doug/Dad