[August 2005 journal entry]
My default is set to be fully transparent in the numerous simultaneous gatherings/conversations in which I participate. When with those individuals with whom I conspire (i.e., ‘breath together’), being freely transparent is a gift, a joy. When in casual gatherings/conversations, I tend to be quiet or to ask questions. When in gatherings/conversations ripe for clashes, I tend to be quiet or to respond ambiguously (i.e., true but not full disclosure). Only in gatherings/conversations against which I am compelled to engage in subversive action (analogous to Dietrich Bonhoeffer’s participation in covert resistance against Hitler and the Nazis) would I feel justified in covering my true thoughts with contradictory speech.
